So about a month ago I started taking anxiety medication. For whatever reason my body simply could not handle the amount of stress in my life on a daily basis and I would begin to hyperventilate and get close to passing out, and I started to have other health problems because of it. It was not a good way to live life! So my medication is finally helping me to feel in control of life again. I was so opposed to medications for things like that, I use to think that you could control everything and that medications were for weaklings. Well I surrender! I am thankful for medications that even if for a few months will make life manageable. I plan on stopping the medication when we are all done with our move and I have a job and life has settled down a bit. I firmly believe that prayer has the power to heal all things, but I now believe that sometimes that isn't how the answer comes. For me it was to surrender and admit that I needed something more. I am thankful that I am given weaknesses to remind me to get on my knees and pray.
Our move is coming in two weeks, and I usually have our whole apartment packed, but I actually don't. This is how I know the medicine is helping. lol. I finally don't think of a hundred things at once, and I am not over ocd about things! Is this how everyone else feels all the time?! I love it! Well anyway I don't have anything deep to talk about just that life is good today!
I have a hundred things to do, and a few things to worry about, but I have decided that I am just not going to worry about it until Justin is finished with his finals next week and can ask for help. Me asking for help is like showing my heart on my sleeve. It just doesn't happen. lol. But for this move and big change, Justin is my one steady thing that reminds me all the time that it will be okay, and that it will work out because it is what we are supposed to do.
We are looking forward to finding out about school hopefully next week! I am also working on a new project for Lylia's birthday. There are these cute princess dress up things at her day care and she loves them. I decided to try and make one. We shall see. This is my first creative project without a pattern. I am nervous about the outcome, but I think it will work out!
Well I think that is all that is on my mind. Thank goodness it isn't a list of about 50 things, because trust me it could be!
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Kelly, you are so bae to admit that! I did the same not too long ago and you know how I feel about asking for help. You will do great, because you are great! I am here if you ever need a should (local or figuratively)look for me on FB melaneeanne I am also at hotmail under the same name. Love ya!
I tried to Find you on FB but I couldn't find you. Look for me, under Kelly Tate
I am enjoying your posts and watching you stretch and grow and learn. That's not always an easy thing to do. I am proud of you and those things you are trying accomplish.
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