An awkward list to make...

This was not an easy assignment to do. But I posed the question today to some friends of do you love yourself, and if so how did you do it. The answers were similar at times and others not so much. I’ve been thinking a lot about the question my friend Tracee posed to me after stating what she loved about herself, “what do you love about yourself?” It hit me with such force. Never had I been asked that question so directly. And I loved it and appreciated that she did that for me. Then another friend suggested making a list but making sure to remove any that I would correlate with a title or what others would say about me. I knew I would have to take time tonight to think about it. Probably one of the most thought-provoking things.

So here I go:

I love that I am sentimental.

I love that I love to dress up and feel pretty. Although I don’t do it enough

I love that I love movies.

I love that I love working outside in my yard.

I love that I do projects.

I love how I snuggle my babies by holding them and kissing them.

I love my testimony of my Savior Jesus Christ.

I love that I am a good teacher.

I love that I recognize when the spirit is speaking to me.

I love that I sing songs while mowing.

I love who I am when I am on vacation. I’m laid back, care free, enjoying the moments.

I love that I am no longer a door mat, and that I stand up for myself. (Sometimes to a fault)  

I like that I am not afraid to put my insecurities out there.

I love that I love cats and kissing that soft spot behind their ears and listening to them purr.

I love my dreams for my life.

I love how the rain calms me.

Is this even the list of things that I can love about myself?  I tried to remove titles and really tried to think of what I liked about myself at the end of the day. What I do when no one is looking that makes me feel like me.  I don’t know if I did this right. And although I know these are things I do or that I am good at, do I really love them. Why do I feel so confused and so in my head? I was told not to over think it, but I think I want to fix myself so badly that I am over thinking things, thinking that the answer will eventually come or if I don’t think deeply about it, that I’ll miss the moment when I can say I love myself.