Seminary...its not for the faint of heart

So I accepted the call to be seminary teacher this year to 8 awesome youth! It is early seminary which means that I get up at 5:05 am because those 5 minutes more after 5 give me the illusion of sleeping in. Seminary starts at 6 pm at the church which is about 15 minutes away. It is my 2nd day but my first day of really teaching. I was so excited to be teaching in the new testament until today when I realized jumping in half year means I've missed all the chapters on the Savior and his miracles. Now I am on the stuff I consider more difficult because I never read it as much. So today it was on Stephen and how he was called as one of 7 to administer to the widows and held the lesser priesthood. What I loved about Stephen is his faith that when he taught they could not deny the spirit he spoke with. I also love that he was fearless in his teachings. He truly desired to serve God. He also saw Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ, which is one of a few evidences in the Bible that Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ are separate beings, but also that God does reveal himself in the flesh. Tomorrow is chapter 10 which is taking the Gospel to the Gentiles now. And it is where Saul becomes Paul because his name would not be accepted by the gentiles being a Hebrew name. I am already learning so much! I know this calling is for me more than anyone else. I have been praying for a way for Heavenly Father to help motivate me to read and pray more. Well he answered my prayer in a very great way! He gave me the motivation for both! I have fallen on my knees in the past two days more than I have in a long time, and I rely so much on the Spirit to lead and direct my studies, and what I say in class. I've never felt so incapable as I am in this calling, but at the same time I know that through my Savior and Heavenly Father that it is totally possible. I am tired at the end of the day and that has brought the blessing of sleeping through the night which I haven't had in a very long time. Justin has been blessed with more time with the girls in the morning it seems. When I get home he has them at the table eating breakfast together, and it just warms my heart. We've been blessed so far with no conflicts of schedules, and I just pray that continues. It is amazing how quickly 50 minutes goes and truly I have more material than I have time which is great. I bare my testimony that although I thought about saying that this calling would be too much for my family and myself, but I trust in the Lord and that he will bless me to be able to accomplish that which he has commanded. And he has soooo much already! I truly count my blessings!