Rock Paper Scissors Shoot

So Justin has been my life saver lately. For some reason my body is experiencing so much more stress than it is use to. Because of this I cry on a normal basis, and I have things happening to my body that aren't healthy or normal. Justin has learned some good things that have put a smile on my face when I didn't think it was possible. Yesterday before work he danced with me. I of coarse cried the whole time and then the weight of my worries drifted away in the lyrics of the song. Well again today I was feeling sad for a number of stressful reasons.
Today it was for a few reasons. As some of you know Justin and I have been wanting another baby, but we just haven't gotten an answer either way. Well even if we could we haven't been blessed with a baby yet, and watching friends of mine have babies still hurts. It reminds me of everything that I can't have right now. We have had this back and forth on that topic alone as is it the right time, or sometimes do you just do it because you'll never have life put in the perfect line. Well anyway what will happen will happen.
The other reason is because work has been so stressful lately. All of the responsibility lies on me, and because I trust myself I know it will get done, but at what cost. Well my health. I am anxious about everything. I worry that I am forgetting about just that one student. And so all of their stresses become my stresses.
The other reason is because I don't have enough hours in the day to get it all done. I want to sew, I want to play with Lylia, I want to just not worry about everything. Justin's dad says, "Don't worry be happy." and I seriously have been trying to not worry about things that I don't have control over, but doing that is not as easily done as it is said.
Well Justin today while on the phone was able to put such a big smile on my face. Rock, paper, scissors shoot! I never knew it could make me laugh out loud. I am thankful to a sweet supportive husband who tries to remind me that it will all work out. That faith is not easy. I am just trying to show Heavenly Father that I want this so badly. I want to be able to move on with life a little. School is not glorious life, but rather the way to a better life.
After talking to a dear friend at work today, I realized that we all have things that we worry about. For some it is about what they will make for dinner, for others it is about putting things in just the right place, and for me it is about everything. LOL. But truly talking to her was much needed therapy. She helped me put things in perspective. I was talking to her about my relationship with Heavenly Father, and she is not a member of the same church I am, and so we were talking about Heavenly Father as our Heavenly Father, and it was so wonderful! I was talking to her like I knew she had a relationship with him, and how he knows me, and then she started talking about her relationship with Heavenly Father. It was a very sweet conversation. We although have very different lives, (she has a partner) and I have a husband, we were able to talk about our Father in Heaven. It really just made me happy to think we are all in this together. Whether we go to the same church. I don't know if that makes sense, but I just really needed that conversation. It was funny to hear how she felt Heavenly Father knew her and how I felt he knew my qwarks. Heavenly Father felt very near today. It was a good reminder that when things get tough and when they don't that we need to just go to him. I more than anything just wanted to go and pray to him. I felt at that moment that he could help my anxiety disappear, and I wish I hadn't forgotten that. Thank goodness for that!
I am tired of feeling sick all the time. I finally see the answer was in what I was always told to do all along, which was read my scriptures and say my prayers.

I have many things to be thankful for. Heavenly Father, my husband, my daughter, my job, dancing, my family, and rock paper and scissors!